"We were sort of conditioned when we started the academy, it was beat into us that if we get out of here and mess up, we can be fired for no reason," Ellison reflects. "They don't need to have justification for terminating. If you come in late, if you damage a vehicle, things of that sort. Things just to make us aware that what we do within this first year can make or break your career. Neither one of us had been in a deadly force incident before."
But something else had been instilled in the officers, as well. Something that superceded such concerns. The preservation of life, including their own. And that was the prevailing mindset that the two partners retained when it most mattered.
When asked—with the advantage of hindsight—if he'd ever considered how he might have handled the situation differently, Ellison says, "I played it over and over in my mind over the past 12 years, and I can't think of anything that I could have done differently. Maybe not holstering my weapon when I gained entry into the house. Possibly, I could have been a little more patient with the guy and tried to talk him out. Just do more negotiating as opposed to being as aggressive as we were. But like I said, we were young officers. We didn't know much. We thought we knew everything at the time. Other than that, I can't really think of anything we could have done differently."
Like most law enforcement officers, Ellison had anticipated the possibility of being assaulted on duty, even shot. But he hadn't envisioned the possibility of being stabbed. He recalls examining his Safariland vest afterward.
"I could see two puncture holes in the bottom tip of the vest, less than a centimeter into the actual vest itself. If it had been a centimeter lower, it would have missed the vest and struck me below my ribs. So it just barely hit that vest. It's so hot and bulky and everybody's always complaining about it. When we were in the academy, we wore it every day. When we went through the academy in the summertime, we complained about it. But whenever I have that uniform on, I wear my vest."