But wait…you say you do understand? Maybe if I'd had someone to talk to like you I wouldn't have been so alone in those dark days.
Unfortunately, one of the brain's nasty little tricks is making us focus on ourselves when we are sad or depressed; we feel we are alone, isolated, experiencing things no one else could feel or understand. But this is just a false perception. I am not saying you weren't sad or depressed; we all feel that way sometimes, and I am compelled to confess what I have felt and how I have learned the hard way that shutting down and finding yourself on an emotional island is NOT the way to cope. I learned that from Dr. Kevin Gilmartin. He isn't my friend because he wrote the book "Emotional Survival," or was a deputy, but because he was my salvation.
Everyone gets depressed at some point, and whether you are simply recovering from a loss or bad event or suffering from true clinical depression, here are some thoughts on what to do.
First, get a checkup. Physical ailments affect our mood and thoughts, so make sure you aren't suffering from some medical problem. Second, evaluate what is stressing you out. If your mom just died and you aren't upset you are in serious denial and it will catch up with you. Next, realize the nasty trick our brain pulls on us by giving us the illusion of isolation. Many people have suffered what you have, or something similar, and just knowing that fact helps us heal. It isn't an accident that when the VA started putting vets suffering Post Vietnam Syndrome into peer support groups they started getting well. We need each other.
Don't let inertia keep you from action. Move, get out of the house, see a movie, work out, and then get help. I pray we are past the days of stigmatizing each other for getting help. You would yell at a rookie for handling a dangerous call and failing to call for backup, right? Why would you expect your brothers and sisters to suffer pain alone?
