But then dealing with the mental aspects of a shooting—both during the incident, and after—was something Jefferson had made a conscious effort to do from his first day on the job 12 years before. Not that he didn't do his fair share of second guessing nonetheless.
"I've always prepared myself to be in the mental status of waiting for the gunfight to happen," Jefferson reflects. "I always prepared myself mentally for it to happen. I tell my wife, 'Today's the day,' and she says, 'Don't talk like that.' The mental part really helped me prepare for it.
"I think the hard part was how I felt after. I never did any reading on what happens after or what happens to you physically during a gunfight, having tunnel vision, and looking down inside the barrel. His gun was dirty and 3 o'clock to 5 o'clock there was dirt inside the barrel. Then there was the auditory exclusion—I didn't hear any of the shots, his or mine."
Ironically, it was the man who'd gained the lead and disappeared from sight first that had set up to ambush the officer. Jefferson's wide approach around the corner of the garage may have made a big difference in the outcome of the subsequent exchange of gunfire.
"As far as I could tell, he was point shooting. If I came right around the corner, he was planning to shoot me in the face. When I came out 12 feet away, he might have gotten scared. Maybe he didn't expect that.