At first, this unexpected equilibrium response to the shooting concerned him.
"There'd been another shooting incident involving a kidnapping situation several years prior to this. I called the guy who was involved in that shooting to drive me to the hospital. I asked him if I was supposed to feel bad about this. He said that depends on you. He never felt bad or had bad dreams and neither have I.
"My office paid for a couple of visits to a psychiatrist in Portland who specializes in officers who are involved in traumatic incidents. I went for my benefit; it wasn't a fitness for duty deal or anything like that. I had an hour visit and she said I was doing fine and didn't need to come back."
Lawler knows it might sound like a redundant observation, yet he feels compelled to drive home the importance of mental and physical preparation for such an engagement.
"You mentally prepare yourself for any situation, as you're driving to it or any time you think about it. You think, 'What would I do in this situation?' I think that mental preparation pays off tremendously," he explains. "So does practicing a variety of shooting positions around your patrol car or different types of cover. You have to prepare yourself tactically, physically, and mentally on several different fronts, and the more that you do that, the better the likelihood you'll come out OK when something like this happens. When I got into this job, I had to decide that if I had to kill someone I wouldn't hesitate, that way I wouldn't have any problem in that respect later. And I didn't."